Of Broken Heartss

I HATE life!
Screw life! 

The one and only thing i can wish for..
For plans to go right..

Sadly.. wishes dun come true..

Double the sadness..
Seems to be tht im prohibited to love..

Punishment for doing so..
HURT 

AARRGGHHHH!!! Its been way long its i last blogged!! hahaa.. been too tired recently i guess!!..
Anywayss.. updates on my life thus far!! =) A new beginning! The chapters in MY book are beginning to fill... =)

1) Had my hair done.. Cut, Dyed, Highlighted.. (FINALLY!~)
2) Went MOS on wed night wif a whole lot of CRAZY Gap-perss!!
3) Went Zouk wif Dearie!
4) Went K Box (Cine) to celebrate Tommy's upcoming B'dae!

Well.. actually alot more happened since i last blogged.. but these are like the main events these pass few dayss!! =) Crazy-Fun all in all.. Uber shagged out i can say! but i din care! i was enjoyin myself too much alr.. X)

THE most amazing thing happened on Wed night!! 28th Nov!! I'll nv ever forget!! =)
I'm still in awe too love.. really am!.. =)

I really wanna say so much! I just dunno how to put into wordss..
First thing's first!.. So sorry yea sweetss.. as these pass few days have been quite draining for me.. i haven really been as Crazy-Funny as u haf been.. Hope u're not getting bored alr? =X Once i catch up on my slp i'll be twice as Crazyy as u are aighty sweetss? =D

"Baby, u've been so patient, so caring, so sweet, so understanding..
I'm really so lost.. and u wanna know y?..
Cos i still cant believe how uber lucky i am to haf met u..
How lucky i am for u to haf come into my life.. =)
I'm so afraid tht i cant keep up dear..
With everything u've showered upon me thus far..
I jus cant keep up.. u truly are so amazing!
I AM truly lost for wordss right now..
Cant seem to find the right wordss to describe the way i feel abt u now..
Pure serenity sweetss.. PURE serenity.. =)"

Counting down the hrs till we meet later alr yea!.. Cant wait! Cant wait! =D
I'll definitely write more abt u once i'm cleared of this darn mental block aight sweetss?
I truly am falling deeper with each passing min of each passing day tht i'm with you..
Walking on air is wat i'm feeling now.. cant imagine how i'd feel the next few dayss.. X)

I'll see u real soon sweetss! Cant Wait!!! hehss.. **HUGSS N KISSES!!** LOVESS!! =X

 From feeling sick, tired, grouchy, irritated, agitated..
To feeling happy, cheery, energetic and without a doubt light on my feet..

All it took..
Was ONE SMILE..

"....you came, you smiled, you lifted the chains off someone's heart...."

Haven seen u for quite awhile..
Guess wat??

I MISS YOU! =)

 

".....No Hope, No Love, No Glory......"

WHY?
A week's worth, Gone in a glance...

 

Time and time again..
I find myself back at this very same spot..
At this very same spot in my mind..

Lost within my thoughts..

It doesn't matter how much time passes by me..
It does nothing for me anymore..
For me, its just simply delays the inevitable..

I guess for me there really ain't an escape..
B'cos i guess i choose this path im on now yea?
I always known myself to take the subtle approach on life..
Neither the easy nor hard way..
Guess sometimes it ain't even in between too..

If anything, im actually kinda glad too..
I'm actually feeling better..
Even though i'm still lost within myself..
I'm actually able to bear with it now..
Able to laugh it off..
Smile it off..

I cant lie..
It does hurt having to feel the way i do..
But at least for now..
I actually am smiling for the right reasons..

The reason as to why i'm actually getting stable?
Is it that i'm starting to really believe in myself?
Or is it that i'm starting to really get hold of reality?
A lil of both i guess?

Been too virtual for way too long alr yea..
I still am somehow..

But with each visit i make into this timeless room..
This very spot in my mind where all thoughts are as clear as crystal..
I start to be more aware of myself..
And learning more each time on how to sort those thoughts out as well..

Truth be told..
There's still something on my mind that's still left with a question mark..
Something i've yet sort out myself..
But i guess somethings are better off left untouched and not bothered yea?



I've learnt to hold on..
No matter the amount of impossibilities..

My hand's out reaching..
Only able to reach what wants to be reached..

Should have stayed in bed today.
I Couldn't think of of a positive thing to say.
My friends all hate me now.
I was selfish I realize now.

I gave it a little time.
I thought about it a while.
Ask to forgive and forget.
Crack a joke and a smile.

It's hard to say your sorry,
when you know that you were wrong.
The weight of hurting words
we often carry on. O-o-o-o-o-o-o-n

The annoying things,
I don't mind,
so much anymore.
I've learned,
to tolerate,
the annoying four.

I won't let the sun go down,
when I've made a mistake.
I'll make right what I've wronged,
and give more than I take.

It's hard to say your sorry,
when you know that you were wrong.
The weight of hurting words
we often carry on. O-o-o-o-o-o-o-n

Just like any other day..
Again,
I've lost my way..

Eyes closed..
Tears rolled..

With a heavy heart..
I give a deep sigh..

Like every other day..
I pray..

A silent play..
In darkness..

A shimmering light..
Shows the way..

 
-U bring out the best in me-